A new hope awakens..

Forever lost beneath my shadow, i see the light.standing still.. lingering in front of me..

I thought it could be easier to change the life of others with my effort ..to be happier..to love..

But instead disappointment filled a void that nothing can really fulfil by now..

I try to help, to be thoughtful and oblige..but the target i choose is never the one truly real..

I elude myself thinking my main goal is already discovered..maybe I choose the easy way instead of realizing that nothing is really that simple..

My sin is to be too cautious, never taking risks, never grabbing chances..

But someday i will be different, I have too be..

I can't change others, can't make them better..can't assume my way of thought is the right path to go..i am not that selfish..I can't be..Am I?

Time is running too fast, and I can't keep it's pace...So it's time to be greater than before and become...

hopeful...

once again...

The trick is to keep breathing...

How do we live each day we pass by?
How do we control what is going to happen next?
How do we get up in the morning without knowing if our love is going to be there by our side?
How do we learn that destiny is not an answer to solve the mysteries of our present self?
How can we continue to live after all the disappointments and all the broken pieces , we had to endure, in our brief existence?
How do we control ourselves, restrain our anger and sorrow beneath our skin, and learn to gain peace inside our hearts, learning to forgive..

All these questions have only one answer..

The trick is to keep breathing...

It´s cold outside..but warm inside your heart

It's cold outside..and within me too..

I can´t stop shaking, afraid of what life will be without someone to share it with..A frozen breath, a fading sound of a heartbeat is confused beneath the trembling moves of my body...I look at a window hoping for a sign of love, a whisper of kindness that could warm my heart once again and enlighten me with the wisdom i once had..The noises i hear are part of a reality i once lived..but not anymore..I am lost inside a selfish body, one who can't experience the purpose of life on it's own..with the primal need to feed on others, which created me.... a weaker man..someone who is changing in front of my eyes but don't know how to face, how to confront, how to embrace..

The closing metaphor of my existence could be made or described in many ways, but the easiest way to show it to you, is to make you understand that part of your soul is within me, within all of us..and the only way to fill your heart is to understand this..

Be part of my heart and soul just for a moment, because if i could keep you and that warm feeling for just a second, it will be enough to warm me the rest of my life...

My ultimate desire..

I fight everyday to conquer my fears..
The scars of the past left by them, are the ones which i never forget..
My mind creates a world of fantasy in which i want to dream and release myself...
To get away from those fears, erasing all the remains and imperfections of my soul, and continue to discover new unfounded mysteries of life, i have to set me free..
Set me free from the chains which restrain me to this material world...
I only need a moment, a simple second will be enough..
I need the freedom of thought to survive, to be able to dream and achieve an higher purpose..to give meaning to my life...to give a direction in which I can continue to walk step by step, or run towards something I need to achieve..
But I have to grow, understand my soul is unique but my capability to evolve is unstoppable.
For that I need a stronger will, courage, and most of all.. be able to believe..some can call that religion, in the form of faith..others can call that an inner strength or perhaps a form of energy, we all have it inside of us, just waiting to reveal itself to the world..

I don´t want to abandon my dreams, but i want to live towards them.. realizing that i am living in the real world, with other needs I have to fulfil.

Don't loose yourself in the demanding world we live in..keep a second of peace to yourself each day, and you will learn to live better..

Your guardian angel..

My spirit is immortal..These words i write will be forever carved in my soul..not because they could be important, but because they mark an effort to be, an effort to be free..

Staring at the sun we see the world moving once more, afraid with the eminence of the tomorrow...of the future we do not know..It's a risk we take..it's life in her best.

It's fun to see life evolving, to grow, to be different, realizing we can make a difference by just listening to others and to our inner soul..

Growing it's just a part of the process, building something that make us feel complete..

One of my wishes is to be reminded as someone who was simple but at the same time tried to evolve, to know the world, to listen and finally to be better each time a second was passing throughout my hands..

That is why i free this words to the world, they don't deserve to be caught inside myself..

I live trying to make a difference, fighting with time, leaving behind many unfinished desires that one day i hope to achieve..As an human my destiny have an ending, my story is only the small piece of the puzzle..

Our bonds, our thoughts will always be kept in each other minds and that's why i wrote, because it's a way of being part of your soul, being the guardian angel of those who deserve my kindness and care.

Intuition

The intuition is the key to be unique..our way to be is made from our steps in the dark..to step outside our shell and realize the world doesn't spin around us is the path to understand the true meaning..of our true destiny..

The need to breed affects our mind as the will to survive affect our basic actions..to be different, to live without chains make us unsafe, afraid... but at the same time is what makes more aware to the dreams and desires of others.. the strong souls can't live imprisoned in a world they can't control anymore..and to be strong is to be different..

To create a dream in our own reality is to preserve our own individuality..it's easier to make our own mistakes based on pure instincts, than to realize our decisions aren't the ones who destroyed our merciful dreams anymore..to be rational sometimes is to kill our dreams, and our heart can't support the responsability of making all the decisions of our own life.

To repent is to doubt ourselves, to question our heart, our thoughts, our ideals but most important to realize there is not a single solution to our identity..

In the end the most important is to live and learn, to be fulfilled...
and to live..in peace with our own soul..

Life

The axel of earth spins without control..step by step it moves toward the infinity... revealing behind his veil endless mysteries of humanity..millions of fragile beings that survive for a purpose..even though they struggle for life..it's life that make them special..unique..

In the depths of our worlds lies the difference between right or wrong..the principles that make our soul and clarify the doubts and worries of our way to be..What makes us stronger also changes us forever..for better or worse, it's not for us to decide..the world have it's ways of returning the kindness and hatred of humankind...

Nature can give us everything we desire, because we were born like many others to learn and be greater, to evolve and create art, to listen to the song of the universe and realize that is not so simple to grow, but it's easier to be born..

To understand the essential doubts of life is not my purpose, but to question them is all i can ask..

Be aware of the present, honor the past and desire the future..
Because life is a game you don't want to loose...

Searching beyond my reach..

The things i try to do, to reach something i don't know, can someday be more than simple challenges to reach beyond..maybe tomorrow someone will reach their hand and grant me the wish i so long have search this earth for..
Some wishes were already granted..but i can only be gifted once more when i learn that to dream is to live..to realize that these wishes are part of our soul, of our ability to be more than simply and ordinary people walking by the sidewalks..we can change our lives.
We can be more that we want..
The doubts are part of our river, undeniable springs we ask our selfs everyday..they feed the fish that deep down don't know where to go, but something lead them there..that something is you..
It's hard to change? It's harder to live in the same old, ambiguous defeat, depressive dark corner..or isn't it? It's easy to throw away guilt and sorrow to others shoulder's and cry selfish tears for the errors we do or we did...
Our existence is not shallow..it is full..and maybe a hole life can't change the world today..but maybe a second can change it tomorrow..and that is the only thing i won't forget all my life..all my humanity...

To be part of this world is easy..to realize you deserve it..that is the ultimate question..
And..if you think twice..you have more than one second to do something about it, and to learn how to enlighten yourselves to be a little more..human.

The pure heart in our souls..

My heart..A thing i never thought about..

I am lying to myself..i always lie to myself..i think of it many times...but to others i am pure...honest..trully to my values..
Never understood why is that..why did i fear myself so many times...
Do i think someone can steal my heart, and turn me in another me...?
Don't know..i only know it's a happier me that lies in my heart today..because a part of it has been given away..maybe when i finnally shared a part of it, i will found at last the purest soul beneath this unholy world..
And i think i have found it..
I think i have..
But..(and there is always a "but") to think is just too complicated..i prefer to live life as it is..
Just once..try to give grace to the things i have now..and appreciate all the love, friendship and good things that surround me..

"It's better to live love for one second..than to hate love forever"

To see you again..

To learn how the power flows...

To become a greater mind...
To understand you are not alone...
To become a part of mankind...

See the souls of those who lived...
See what other's can accomplish...
See the world as it can be...
See what hate can demolish.

You awake, it's all new...
You see closely, it's all clear...
You speak slowly, it has no meaning...
You just live..it's only fear.

Again, it all can be true...
Again, it's so easy to wander...
Again, it's not our job to destroy...
Again, the world is not ours to plunder

To hesitate is not the answer..

The anxiety to be different...
The pressure to be the best...
The calling to the temptation..
The feeling to be like the rest.

To be better after each day...
To be running through the clouds...
To reach heaven or even hell...
To be hidden behind the crowds.

To hesitate in front of her
To release words i can't pronounce
To challenge the laws of phisics
To be an hero? i renounce...

Scrap from Deviant art
(never hesitate 2 by `suzi9mm)

Weaknesses..

I am tired..

The effort for being strong vanishes before my eyes..
I am weak..
The disease is trying to take my soul away..
But i am not hearing her words..
i am fighting against the dark feeling who pushes me down..
My eyes feel heavy as the rest of my body surrenders to the darkness inside me..
My mind still continues to fight in vain..
Tomorrow will be a new day..
My pure light will once again bright higher as the sun...
And the darkness inside me will be punished...
as the cruel evil she is..
My wings will gain power to fly and my words will spread across the world to silence the ones who survive in the darkness, and give them hope to reborn once more..
The strength is inside my soul and nobody can destroy it...

Wanderings..

Somewhere, somehow i always thought destiny is made with our own bare hands..we make our path..but never face myself that others could erase it..so easy.. right before my own eyes..as they do over..and over again.



I always fight against what i thought it was unfair, unworhty, undignifying.. like a hero facing evil..but without a cape..without any mask..and simply showing my true self..

I think its hard to find the right pieces in this world..
Life is like a collection of neverending puzzles..and sometimes when we finnally think we found the last one, and are eager to see the landscape it hides..the final puzzle it's not what we expected..or the puzzle isn't finished at all or the last piece just doesn't seem to fit in..and the hard we try to push forward, the puzzle just gets all mixed up again..and all the work we have put in this beloved puzzle was worthless..

This is a way of thinking..but what can we do after all? If we had fight so much for a purpose we think is right, why should we can't get rewarded for what we have done? and why couldn't we finish the damn puzzle? didn't we put all our strengths to studying all the remaining pieces of this maze we got into...?



There are many "why's", many "who's", but we can always count on belief..hope..will..inner strength..and when that is lost..a cry for help is listened..by a friend..by someone..by love itself..or if the darkness hears it..only silence can help you..and believe me, that help don't lead to anywhere..because you can suffer eternally and hide beneath darkness..but that will only disguise the warm heart of light you have inside..and the inner beauty that lies beneath...

I begin to w(o/a)nder...

Will the dark reveal beneath his layers, a reborned hero...?
Will the attraction of a lonely dark soul, begin to form in my head an appeal to the greatness of my being inside..?
Will the distance become just another obstacle, to surpass and destroy, like many others before..?

Does the calling i ignore is not the road i am destinated to cross..?
Does the heroes around me never realize the strength they have inside..?
Does the peaceful mornings we love to have, will be corrupted someday with agonizing thoughts we can't forget...? pieces of our precious past...?

Could i share my unpredictable thoughts, with ones who understand my speech..?
Could i be different from the croud, who drop tears of joy from victories of battles which will never end..?
Could i dream about the perfection of humanity, if the human nature itself can't be never satisfied..?

I begin to wander..how cold can be my words, to hurt a pure heart with a touch of silk..
I begin to wander..how long could this pain last in other's hearts, and when will i have the power to ease their pain..
I begin to wander..how lucky are the souls of those, that take a false step into oblivion just to see the other side of the world..

I begin to wonder...

Wanderings of questions

Time and space..misfortune or question of reality we can't control?
Is that a question we can put on the table..?
Can it make sense to realize that we are pawns, or it is stupid to behave like that? To be held by a destiny we think it can happen..anytime..anywhere..in a blink of an eye...?
We are all made of questions we can't answer..And in most cases to answer a question is to grow as a person...
Trying to understand the meaning of the question just makes the right answer seems an ironic one..why? because many say that pursuing the answer itself is the best thing to do, when they can't understand that the time passes and the answer seems meaningless..as the time goes by..


It doesn't matter if the answer is right or wrong...just answer the question in your own way..

And your spirit will became clearer..until the next question arrives to haunt you again...