A new hope awakens..

Forever lost beneath my shadow, i see the light.standing still.. lingering in front of me..

I thought it could be easier to change the life of others with my effort ..to be happier..to love..

But instead disappointment filled a void that nothing can really fulfil by now..

I try to help, to be thoughtful and oblige..but the target i choose is never the one truly real..

I elude myself thinking my main goal is already discovered..maybe I choose the easy way instead of realizing that nothing is really that simple..

My sin is to be too cautious, never taking risks, never grabbing chances..

But someday i will be different, I have too be..

I can't change others, can't make them better..can't assume my way of thought is the right path to go..i am not that selfish..I can't be..Am I?

Time is running too fast, and I can't keep it's pace...So it's time to be greater than before and become...

hopeful...

once again...

The winds of change swift every second..

I always think my story would not be over in one day..it will be forever carved in my soul and the souls within my surroundings..The black and the white part of my soul grow in what i am today..nothing less, nothing more..just who I am.

Others could think it was a simple growth, a conflict beneath my deep conscience that i never had power to control..others simply chose one side and fought for the darkest part of my soul to be free..but the strongest within me never let that destructive force get away...
But the war is never over..and even the strongest hero can fall..even the brightest star can loose her spark..but never..never i will loose my will..to fight back.

The trick is to keep breathing...

How do we live each day we pass by?
How do we control what is going to happen next?
How do we get up in the morning without knowing if our love is going to be there by our side?
How do we learn that destiny is not an answer to solve the mysteries of our present self?
How can we continue to live after all the disappointments and all the broken pieces , we had to endure, in our brief existence?
How do we control ourselves, restrain our anger and sorrow beneath our skin, and learn to gain peace inside our hearts, learning to forgive..

All these questions have only one answer..

The trick is to keep breathing...

It´s cold outside..but warm inside your heart

It's cold outside..and within me too..

I can´t stop shaking, afraid of what life will be without someone to share it with..A frozen breath, a fading sound of a heartbeat is confused beneath the trembling moves of my body...I look at a window hoping for a sign of love, a whisper of kindness that could warm my heart once again and enlighten me with the wisdom i once had..The noises i hear are part of a reality i once lived..but not anymore..I am lost inside a selfish body, one who can't experience the purpose of life on it's own..with the primal need to feed on others, which created me.... a weaker man..someone who is changing in front of my eyes but don't know how to face, how to confront, how to embrace..

The closing metaphor of my existence could be made or described in many ways, but the easiest way to show it to you, is to make you understand that part of your soul is within me, within all of us..and the only way to fill your heart is to understand this..

Be part of my heart and soul just for a moment, because if i could keep you and that warm feeling for just a second, it will be enough to warm me the rest of my life...

My ultimate desire..

I fight everyday to conquer my fears..
The scars of the past left by them, are the ones which i never forget..
My mind creates a world of fantasy in which i want to dream and release myself...
To get away from those fears, erasing all the remains and imperfections of my soul, and continue to discover new unfounded mysteries of life, i have to set me free..
Set me free from the chains which restrain me to this material world...
I only need a moment, a simple second will be enough..
I need the freedom of thought to survive, to be able to dream and achieve an higher purpose..to give meaning to my life...to give a direction in which I can continue to walk step by step, or run towards something I need to achieve..
But I have to grow, understand my soul is unique but my capability to evolve is unstoppable.
For that I need a stronger will, courage, and most of all.. be able to believe..some can call that religion, in the form of faith..others can call that an inner strength or perhaps a form of energy, we all have it inside of us, just waiting to reveal itself to the world..

I don´t want to abandon my dreams, but i want to live towards them.. realizing that i am living in the real world, with other needs I have to fulfil.

Don't loose yourself in the demanding world we live in..keep a second of peace to yourself each day, and you will learn to live better..

Song of the past

Memories of the past
Day and night they will be my grasp
Shadows of my place
They grow older with so much grace

Ghosts of the lonely past,
Don't dare to betray me, at last..
Hide it from my love
Keep the angels far from above

Kiss me and say goodbye
what I really want is to cry...
remember my next day...
And all what we needed to say..

Give me all I want
dreams and desires I would forgot
Bring me that last breath
Don't come with me...to my Death

Your guardian angel..

My spirit is immortal..These words i write will be forever carved in my soul..not because they could be important, but because they mark an effort to be, an effort to be free..

Staring at the sun we see the world moving once more, afraid with the eminence of the tomorrow...of the future we do not know..It's a risk we take..it's life in her best.

It's fun to see life evolving, to grow, to be different, realizing we can make a difference by just listening to others and to our inner soul..

Growing it's just a part of the process, building something that make us feel complete..

One of my wishes is to be reminded as someone who was simple but at the same time tried to evolve, to know the world, to listen and finally to be better each time a second was passing throughout my hands..

That is why i free this words to the world, they don't deserve to be caught inside myself..

I live trying to make a difference, fighting with time, leaving behind many unfinished desires that one day i hope to achieve..As an human my destiny have an ending, my story is only the small piece of the puzzle..

Our bonds, our thoughts will always be kept in each other minds and that's why i wrote, because it's a way of being part of your soul, being the guardian angel of those who deserve my kindness and care.